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Starting Over

 Ok, starting over might be a little dramatic. I’m not starting over in the sense “something went wrong and I need a fresh start”. There hasn’t been a major life event warranting a fresh start (still happily married). But, starting over feels appropriate at the moment. For several reasons.

First, I’m in a ridiculous place in my life, menopause! I say ridiculous because it IS ridiculous. Not one aspect of this feels normal, or balanced, or remotely appealing. The emotions alone are so absurd that my “joke” is I cry over lettuce (sad but it happened. Will get to that later.).

Second, yet again I find myself starting over with trying to live a healthy lifestyle. This is a true lifelong yo yo for me. It’s tiring! And maddening! I was at my goal weight last year. I was doing great! Then, some holidays, a couple of vacations, and lots of unhealthy habits landed me a 30 pound weight gain. THEN, the icing on the cake (probably literally because I ate it) is menopause making it even harder to maintain (worse lose) weight.

And third, I’m trying to find balance with work, family, exercise and ME TIME. If I don’t get adequate me time I’m not a good person to be around. Especially during menopause! You’d think at 53 I’d have this balance figured out. Nope. Still learning.

So, I feel like I’m learning a new me, a new way of life. I think, how do I help myself through this? How do I navigate menopause and all the “things” that come with it? I’ll write another post on what led me to start a blog. For now I’ll say “I’m here to blog my menopause marathon for my own benefit, and hopefully to help my menopausal sisters along the way”.

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